Kids say the darndest things
the whole of the world
wanted something new
something fresh
brought a whole new idea
into it
asking what reflections
could come out from it
America they called it
yet then didn’t want to hear
even whispers from a child
deep in the trenches
from within it
when I said we had the rainbow
somehow wrong
meaning no rainbow at all
for how we best
go about best loving
in the culture
that erases cultures
that erases races
such a hyper triggered world
race itself isn’t only fixed
it too teaches
permeability
but also
and here’s the trick of it
responsibility
that humans, peoples
of heritages and cultures
are not merely replaceable
why are they not all
seen as beautiful then
in this alleged
consciousness rising world
consciously
in consciousness circles
I get it
constellation belonging
it’s a tricky thing
in this time we are in
in many times really
amidst a world rich
rich in inherited tragedies
with lack of consciousness
maturities
previously
all around the world really
to hold such delicate of things
sacred and relationally
integral
The world so quick
to go right along
scapegoating children
such as myself
as anything else
as not worthy
under any measure
or any light
for even loving myself
how I got to where I am
to begin with
in this life time and ancestrally
I am the youngest daughter
in my family
paying crimes
for my father
being a pedophile
hurting only my own family
I still don’t even know
who either of my parents are
in the game of the cosmos
but I don’t think either
love me
The reflections of this land
they break up master
all controlling
foreign to the West plans
breaking up illusions
illusions of dreams
our lives should be
in compromise for
why is God
a God of loss
is that all we are here for
I listen around
and I hear more tears
than I do
sweet sounds
and not for lack of not listening
does that mean we have to
then though
most love breaking
near everything down
is that all we are here for
I follow words of people
take ‘em at face value
to dream what it is
they say they dream
pathway making
yet time and again
twisted are the words I follow
and everything within
twisted even more within
I am not to dream
I am not to love
what am I in this life for then
I’ve let go of everything
and still it not enough
black mamba medicine
killing all light
in the world
as though jealous of light
just a wee bit different
not meant for it
by sheer nature
of having gone to war
against it
for it not being meant for it
as though understanding
nothing
of diversity
nothing
of abundance
with room for everyone
did slavery teach them nothing
and it wasn’t my family
who did that to any
but I’m glad they cherish
billionaires who did
while the likes of many of them
hurt at every chance
the likes of peasant
ghosted
me’s for it
and use my beloveds
time and again
anyone I show love towards
and so I keep most love in
Do they see yet
it didn’t have to be
like this
it wasn’t only me
who swims in this
frequency with consciousness
their hands
thick in blood with it
like they project in the present
onto only others
across and in time
my goodness do I love
those I love
and I don’t care
that nobody cares
because I fucking do
There’s no hope for me
no hope for me at all
so I can say it
why do they deny the beauty
that is all around them
from being seen as sacred the same
just because it looks
not like them
because it looks a little too close
to the likes of me
did they learn nothing
from segregation
did they learn nothing
from alleged supremacy
did they learn nothing
from alleged social hatred
grace sure ain’t their gift
so I ask then again
what is
what is it they are so insecure with
and I say that lovingly
as someone who sees in them
gifts a plenty
but it ain’t my job
to mention any
not when they won’t
release the sentence
they know was never mine
do they hate I paid it
for an entire line
It’s okay to be seen as hateful
because true love is bigger
than that
to hold something
as small as hatred
against anyone
my love is at least
proven now
to be transcendent of that
that I hold no such
petty things
against any
except false sentences
but I guess they learned nothing
from those such things
either
It takes more love
than most would know
to move differently
in a world tightly controlled
